A Salty Beginning (Draw My Life Part 1)

  • Published: 20 May 2019
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    The audio was too quiet on the other version so I had to reupload it sorry!!

    Draw my life Part 1 is mainly backstory on how I was treated growing up. The whole point of this series is to go into my old psyche and show how i got out of my suicidal tendencies. Part 2 coming soon!
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Comments • 12 073

  • shgurr
    shgurr   5 months back

    IM SORRY! I moved and got side tracked for a month.
    I was actually scared to read the comments of this video
    but you guys are all so nice!

    There is a happy ending it's coming real soon.
    There's a few parts left and they will all be out before vidcon! :3

    • BonnieTheFirst
      BonnieTheFirst  2 days back

      Well watching this I had it lucky. I have had no bully's so far. All I have had is Anger Issues

    • Dat PandaGirl
      Dat PandaGirl  6 days back


    • Michelle Maendele
      Michelle Maendele  6 days back

      Do u still watch matpat shgurr??

    • Oreo 00
      Oreo 00  1 weeks back

      shgurr This series is awesome I’m going through a thing like this so this helps thanks.

    • Tyler Carlin
      Tyler Carlin  1 weeks back

      shgurr I felt the same what I almost killed myself until I seen this vid thank you

  • Robert Candelaria
    Robert Candelaria  20 hours back

    Stop being so happy stop smiling all the time what the f***

    • ChiiboBits :D
      ChiiboBits :D  23 hours back

      My first memory was when I was jumping on the couch and falling off and getting a scar on the back 'o ma head

      • Steve Gets Fucking LOL Rexted

        MY GOD! YOUR LIFE WAS HELL! Also cool glitching effect.

        • Bepis
          Bepis  1 days back

          My first memory I can remember, is stealing my neighbors cool lego figure and it’s still in my room .__.

          • toTalTrash
            toTalTrash  1 days back


            • Ew1c
              Ew1c  1 days back

              so a kid on the baseball team pelted me on the open skin (i cried)

              • corgi king gaming
                corgi king gaming  2 days back

                5 moms said boys will be boys to me each time I yelled I'M A BOY TOO AND I DON'T ACT LIKE THAT!!!

                • [CS] Luna
                  [CS] Luna  2 days back

                  I feel you on the “adults aren’t any better” and that “I can see emotions as a kid” thing

                  • BonnieTheFirst
                    BonnieTheFirst  2 days back

                    I listen to my gut sadly. If it screams "Hey, look, an unlucky person. Fuck him. Here, have a random burst of anger!"

                    • FJ
                      FJ  2 days back

                      I mean kid are weird like me

                      • Vincent Suekawa
                        Vincent Suekawa  2 days back

                        You should listen to Fish in a Tree.

                        • Jeloucris
                          Jeloucris  2 days back

                          Shurgh yo le pegaria a todas esas personas de verdad

                          • Jeloucris
                            Jeloucris  2 days back

                            Yo te protegeria de esas personas ×^/^$^[email protected] pero yo estuviera por a ellas le pego

                            • Finally Anything
                              Finally Anything  3 days back

                              Whoever disliked this video are monsters!😡

                              • Milk
                                Milk  4 days back

                                This was me when I was younger!!!! I think you’re a infp (I am too) and I relate too much.

                                • Game On
                                  Game On  4 days back

                                  I have had similar as a kid

                                  • Mongdi Walling
                                    Mongdi Walling  4 days back

                                    THIS IS SO RELATABLE

                                    Sad 😔😔

                                    • TJMANIAC789
                                      TJMANIAC789  4 days back


                                      • Amy Hart
                                        Amy Hart  4 days back

                                        By texting SHGURR to ...

                                        • Dixie Reynolds
                                          Dixie Reynolds  5 days back

                                          You should react to your old videos

                                          • Danny Steven
                                            Danny Steven  5 days back

                                            I genuinely hate cali kids, i lived in oregon for most of my childhood, and people were much nicer there.

                                            • ARTSY & CARFTY
                                              ARTSY & CARFTY  5 days back

                                              Honestly at all camps I’m friends with all of the councilors because they have better common sense. Children are not my type of friends.

                                              • Fail king Ej
                                                Fail king Ej  5 days back

                                                My first memory is me in this dark place with like 15 holes I look around for a bit then jump down the first one the I wake a in bed.

                                                • STOP SUBSCRIBING TO ME

                                                  I think some of us was a very happy kid ...not knowing that was gonna change soon.

                                                  • N I C E
                                                    N I C E  5 days back

                                                    At 6:14 I literally knew the exact words that the mom would say because I’ve lost count how many times someone has tried to “have a little fun” with me as in almost choking me to death 3 times to pushing me off a 32ft mountain of ice and the adults saying “well boys will be boys” - Rant Off -

                                                    • ʜ̳ᴏ̳ᴏ̳ᴋ̳ǝ̳ᴅ̳

                                                      I live in LA and i,m nice

                                                      • Kayley Davies
                                                        Kayley Davies  5 days back

                                                        GEEZ SHE WAS SUCH A NICE KID, WHO THE HELL WOULDN'T WANT TO BE HER FRIEND WTH

                                                        • Just N
                                                          Just N  5 days back

                                                          "Boys will be boys"
                                                          Guess murdering someone is normal if you are a boy

                                                          • TheseAreMy Crocs
                                                            TheseAreMy Crocs  6 days back

                                                            *(I was born at a very young age)*

                                                            • Michelle Maendele
                                                              Michelle Maendele  6 days back

                                                              Shgurr do u still watch matter?

                                                              • TheBlackCat CrossedYourPath

                                                                I love you so much! I wish I could just give you a hug. I think you're such a nice person and the world needs more people like you.

                                                                • Brì Ling
                                                                  Brì Ling  6 days back

                                                                  When She Said She Almost Swallowed A Quarter I Felt That Cause I Actually Swallowed A Dime That Same Way😭

                                                                  • Noobpoop 3520
                                                                    Noobpoop 3520  6 days back

                                                                    Shgurr is there captain underpants?

                                                                    • Dymandex
                                                                      Dymandex  7 days back

                                                                      OMG! The spike balls are all around my house! We just call them gumballs.

                                                                      • Monkey Man Gaming
                                                                        Monkey Man Gaming  7 days back

                                                                        The adults seem like the parents from it

                                                                        • Game_Racers HD
                                                                          Game_Racers HD  7 days back

                                                                          Man no friends everyone was mean to you. You had it bad....... but you have us now


                                                                          • Emma Martin
                                                                            Emma Martin  7 days back

                                                                            i understand the church struggles. i’m still being forced to go. at least i do online seminary, so i’m lucky in that aspect.

                                                                            • Cupcake Killer
                                                                              Cupcake Killer  1 weeks back

                                                                              I became mature at a young age. One reason might be I went threw a lot of deaths in my family. Like my nephew that died at 6 days old.

                                                                              • Dweebadoo
                                                                                Dweebadoo  1 weeks back

                                                                                I don't know about you but if I got pushed off a chair I would have falcon punch her in the face

                                                                                • Makayla Clements
                                                                                  Makayla Clements  1 weeks back

                                                                                  Finally, a YouTuber with the same religion!!!

                                                                                  • Artizan !
                                                                                    Artizan !  1 weeks back


                                                                                    • Artizan !
                                                                                      Artizan !  1 weeks back


                                                                                  • Mackenzie Burke
                                                                                    Mackenzie Burke  1 weeks back

                                                                                    When they wanted to throw the spike balls at your brother 1 of them or both of them might have had a crush on him idk that’s how boys and girls acted at my elementary school? I just sat in the bench and waited for the pain to be over ._.

                                                                                    • Tochtli
                                                                                      Tochtli  1 weeks back

                                                                                      My very first memory is waking up and literally thinking,
                                                                                      “I have existed for 3 years now.”

                                                                                      • Angel Rex
                                                                                        Angel Rex  1 weeks back

                                                                                        I need a haspin waffle for 5

                                                                                      • :•·•·•Spinel Things•·•·•:

                                                                                        Don't Worry Shgurr Everyone Has A Problem In Their Lives....Like. Being Not Good Enough..

                                                                                        • Buster Roo
                                                                                          Buster Roo  1 weeks back

                                                                                          Shgurr you know sr pelo he’s great he make you said shut.uuuuuuupp in a loud voice check or else

                                                                                          • Foam Less
                                                                                            Foam Less  1 weeks back

                                                                                            Screw them! I'm glad your doing better! You deserve all the love in the world!